Sunday, January 17, 2010

It is Good.

It is good to sink back into writing for the sake of writing. It is good to be sitting down to write for myself, to give voice to ideas and thoughts apart from literature assignments and emails. My entire being feels that contented feeling of finally finding the comfortable spot in bed after restless tossing and turning. This is it. This is where I am hunkering down for a while. This is good.

Things have been happening in my life lately. Big things, little things, things that change the way I think, the way I see, the way I live. I'm in a process of discovering Jesus in a new way, a process of learning obedience and love and faith with a deeper, more meaningful understanding. Ergo, I am also in a process of discovering myself in a new way. What does He want for my life? Where does He want me to go? How can I serve Him? He's been bringing amazing opportunities my way lately and things can't help but to change. My eyes have been opened to His face in a new way...even in my salvation, I was lost, but now I am found. I was blind, but now I see. My life will never be the same, simply for the fact that it can't be.

I hope that change is reflected in this blog. I hope you can see it in my face, in my writing, that you can hear it in my voice and my laughter. I hope that even in my failures and moments of weakness, God is glorified. I hope that this fire within me grows and grows and grows, steady and strong and ready to go where He calls.

So yes, it's been two months since I've written, but it's been a packed two months. Sorry about the hiatus. I could write a post about how I really want to practice discipline this year... I do. I want to lead a more structured life [I use the term "want" loosely - you know, I want-ish to lead a more structured life...] this year than I did last year. I've been reading a lot lately, and it seems to me that in order to improve my craft, I actually have to do it. Fancy that. I want to develop a more consistent writing time, a place in my day where I sit down to write even if I don't feel like it. That's what I want. I also want to pay rent and buy groceries and pass my classes and deepen my relationships, though, so it might be a toss up some weeks. The point is, I really have missed this. I've missed this a lot. I'm going to try to be better, and not because I have an inflated sense of importance, like anyone who might read this has some sort of deep need for it or something, but because it's important. It helps keep me sane. Again, I use the term "sane" quite loosely.

Besides, what happens in my life that people want to hear about? I got my tonsils out, I turned twenty-one with the most epic birthday week ever, I met one of my favorite authors on a whirlwind surprise trip to the city, I sold more panties over Christmas break, I went to the Passion conference in Atlanta and saw Jesus, I've made more new best friends and met more of the MOST INTERESTING PEOPLE EVER, I've had some great conversations, I figured out how to paint the nails on my right hand decently, and my journey towards cooking improved when I got two new cookbooks for Christmas. I mean, do you want to know something? Is there a story in there? I don't know. You tell me.

Anyway, the point is I am a writer, as clearly defined by myself at an obnoxiously high rate. Therefore, I must write. I would love to write for you as often as I can, if you're still around, that is. So...can we be friends again? Pretty please?

6 comments:

Not Furrow said...

....I'm not sure if things can ever be the same, much damage has been done with your absence. Butttt, perhaps with some more frequent writing now and then we might be able to work things out. ;)

Lucky Girl said...

You've come back to us? Please. Stay? Help me Obiwan, you're my only hope. If you start to write again, maybe I will too.

Now go ahead..I want to hear EVERYTHING!

ttcrook said...

It's debatable :/
But you can try to make it up to us (your three most devoted followers).

tori said...

I'm here, I'll always be here and I'm glad you're back! I tried the "break from writing thingie" and almost lost my sanity. I'm looking forward to reading more...

Trena Ivy said...

Okay, so I never knew you before, so I guess we're in the "no damage done" category, but I AM glad you are back to blogging.
As a total outsider, it is encouraging to hear of your past few months, the growth, the fun, the focus. So true how learning and knowing God in new ways allows us to learn and know ourselves in new ways.
I know Jackie had a few months of great growth and I really hope you girls can pick up where you left off and be an encouragement to each other. I'm sure you have many girls on your side, but she's my girl and I know you two can do great things for the Lord together.
Sorry to post a BOOK here! Many blessings....

elleking said...

glad to hear things have been going so well for you. :) Maybe I'll see you soon...? Who knows. Life.